Below Average

Today I finally remembered (see also: had the guts) to launder my signed Thunder Legion shirt. I previously kept it in a zip lock bag to preserve the smell because after all those long hugs, their scent found it's way to cling to the shirt. Ever since then, I've put off washing it for fear of Joey's autograph to fade (even though Sharpies are permanent markers) or for the paint to run (I used textile paint) which I know now are just excuses. It's been 7 months and their scent has gone. I don't think I can stomach another month without washing it because 7 months is gross enough.

As Lara has told me on Twitter, this is symbolic. In her words, it's "letting go of my (our) crazy fangirl days and becoming 'below average'" (read: 3 common types of fangirls) and I could not agree more. This is me taking another step in growing up and being mature about my obsession with bands and their music. If you knew me circa 2005, I was one of those selfish fans who say "no you can't listen to my favorite band, you're not worthy enough" or "no I don't want them to be mainstream" and I can proudly say I've grown out of that phase. You will too, eventually. Someday you'll learn to look at things at a more mature and rational perspective just like I have. You can take the girl out of the concert but not the concert out of the girl, or something like that.