Future

Yesterday, I was determined to figure things out for myself and my future despite only having three hours of sleep. I was close to registering for the upcoming NMAT without telling my parents but had second thoughts before I sent in my form. I just felt like it was such a big decision and it wasn't fitting to take it impulsively. Don't get me wrong, medical school has always been in my plan. All that I've been doing the past 4 years is to get there. I asked myself if I really wanted this even though I already knew the answer but I couldn't just shake of this other plan I had for myself. It's always been, it still is actually, a dream of mine to be a pharmacist. So much so that I abandoned all thought and went in search for a great college that offers Pharmacy.

Right now, it seems the wiser choice between the two. I have more job opportunities if I take Pharmacy and it wouldn't take as long as it would if I chose Medicine. I'm torn. I really really am. It feels like I should be happy whichever I choose since after all, they're both my dreams but then again, this is a decision I shouldn't take lightly.

I spent the entire day thinking about it and the only conclusion I came to was that I would still take the NMAT this December. There is nothing wrong with keeping options open, right? On top of that, I'd still continue to attend trainings and applying for jobs as a nurse - after all, it's what I've studied for and I'm skilled enough to go down that path, if I choose to.